so scared that i cannot sleep,
so many secrets i couldnt keep.
promised myself i wouldnt weep,
one more promise i couldnt keep.
my bestfriend was an idiot and i could really care less. but there is not something wrong with me! why does everyone think hes such a fuckup now? hes not, nothing even close… he
made a mistake, calm down. he came back, just be fucking happy hes alive and not hurt.
i hate this. i hate our society. i hate how no one ever accepts people after a mistake.
i still love you, no matter what you think or how you feel.
and Dominic, you had me scared shitless. i could not stop crying on thursday, and i couldnt
even say your name without feeling scared. i still dont even know the whole story nor do i
know if i even want to. Binko explained some of it to me and just from that i knew you might
not have been okay. im so glad your safe and at home and i love you. i kept your secret, so
i really dont understand why i dont mean anything to you anymore. im sorry anyways.
i hope you are too; i love you Dominic, you mean the world to me.
Everthing is cut and dry,
day and night
earth and sky.
somehow, i just dont believe it.
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